No words for feelings..

I sit here looking back at the wonderful years of my life ! Yes, no doubt the years which passed by were i guess the most "Favourite" years of my life . 

Most of my blog entries of this blog must have defined the REASON for the past years been so special..

I am a "Dumb-head" , yes it's a public confession.

But, i don't know..i am in Love with My heart ! I just can't deny whatever it tells me to do. May be again.. my heart asked me to write this up.

Feelings , yes the Not-so-defined word "feelings" effect you so much. They make you laugh, they make you cry,they make you sad , they make you smile. 

Memories of the person you miss a lot in the present moment,gives rise to this beautiful word "Feelings " .

When you smiled , you smiled with all . But,when you wept , i was there to count you tears coz i wanted to give back the same number of smiles to you.

You fight , you shout , you irritate , you talk , you share jokes which no one can share them with you. The reason which still makes me smile is , you CHOSE me to give all these moments to .

I may not be the special person , i may not be the one whom you feel for , BUT , i never asked you to feel for me that ways .I am still the happiest person on earth , coz you actually left the Gates open for me to KNOW YOU.

May be , what all i felt , might not give me immense happiness. But, life doesn't end , HOPE doesn't end.

I shared moments with you who possibly , no one can ever can share with you , coz i knew the deep down reason behind that fake smile , a reason behind that ignorance for me . Just coz somewhere you hold me special to care for me. 

You might look for my perfect substitutes , but God just introduced me in your life because i have my own special place.

You did feel for me , may be as a friend , but , that's how i can reciprocate in terms of the endless Love.

May be i am selfish to let you go . But, if you were not meant to be with me , we were not significant in each others life till now.

Today, i don't ask for any reasons because everything that somewhere messed up things between us ,were the confused and mixed Feelings .

I don't get hurt when you try to hurt me , coz somewhere i know , u never intended to .

No matter how many ppl care for me in that special way , the last and the only image i see ,before i close my eyes is You . The last prayer of the day is your success which i desperately want to see soon.

You have always been my Hero , Yes, you tell me , mankind is so beautiful !

May be there's a lot i wanna express but as the title of this Blog says .. i have no words for the feelings which you have or i have.

It's just understood by the hearts . Possibly , our minds are not the perfect judges . 

If i need you , somewhere you too need me. This feeling instills life in my every moment .

Parting ways , is always temporary , because we somewhere know , we ought to be together , be it as friends .

Or put it other way round , my heart is a very good friend of your heart. :)

Why name the human bonds ? At times, there are no relations left who can define a bond, So, let the hearts be friends and let not the mind name them.

I just wrote this up , because , i am missing you a lot ,right now . Wherever you are , however you are , just take care angel. Because , every night before i close my eyes, you are the reason i happily smile. :)

Image Before I Close my Eye .

This careless Sunday , a question popped in my mind , the question seemed to be the most useless of all times . But,  i was curious to reason out the answer .
Here goes the Legendary question - " What will be the last images that will go across my mind, before i die ? "
Okay, here goes the battle of priorities then . Human mind no matter what does makes sense at uneven times like a -Sunday ! !
Here i start with the mission of finding an answer to the problem . 

Will it be the drawing of a LOTUS FLOWER which my teacher taught me when i was a first grader ?
 Well, it can be , because it was the most difficult thing for me to draw in my childhood.
It can also be the playground i used to play during the breaks . Aahh ! I miss them so bad,at the moment .

It should be the Hot chocolate Fudge , which i ate every Saturday with the awesome sibling ever . Trust me , it was the most delicious stuff on earth !
Well , hmm .. it can also be the Jumbo Coloring Book, 5 editions of which , still lay in my cupboard,all colored ! ;) ! Yeah. . i completed each image .

What if, it be the girl i always admired ?  The only Girl best friend i have had . Her eyes ,sparkling pretty . Her hair carelessly managed and that cute wing of smile on her face always . She is a great part of my life.  May be , she is the one .
May also be my best friend of all times , the chocolate boy whom i really find like a family , the lazy looking but the awesomely intelligent guy ever.. ? May be .. or may be not.

You only see , what your eyes want to see. Your eyes are the windows to your heart . In short, A Heart's desire is what the eyes see.

My heart's last desire would be to see that tall and broad man whom i cared for ,more than i actually planned. The guy with the most perfect face cut and that ugly beard which never made him look as smart , as he thought he must be looking. Haha. That guy with the ability of being dumb and flaunting at the same time-who has been the purest and most honest person ever. He was an amazing friend, which i probably lost forever. I am sure i would miss him forever. . and may be that's why i am sure ,the last image,my eyes would see , would definitely be of my angel,who came in my life for a reason and left ! :')

My "First-Love"..

Of all the things in the world,
i could not ask for more.

The sweet little things you do for me
touch my heart to the core.

Love is a midas touch ..
U made me understand the true meaning of it.

The day i met you..was the day i learned it.

You changed me as a person.
Believe me .. i am loving this transformation.

The day i met you.. i never knew you will be the one..
The day i realised my love for you ..from then i did not look up to anyone.

You are the one.. i want to hold on for life ..
You are the reason for my daily millions of smile..

The more i think of you.. the more i love you
Can't think of what the cupid is up to..

I feel the presence of your soul in mine ..
i feel the connection b/w u and me ,every day and every night.

The surprised expression on your face ,becomes a great delight..
And, the smile on your face.. makes me live ages in a might.

I  dream of the heavenly feeling.. when you hug me and smile.
I think of every moment when you talk to me or fight.

I love the innocence in you..with which you listen to me.
Like a cute baby..with least interest and a mind viz.always free..

The moment when you kept your head on my shoulder..
I can never forget .. because that was the moment when i felt my heart skipped a beat.

Your voice acts like a chlorophyll for a timid plant like me.
the moment i hear it.. all the fear in me- flee.

I will forever cherish you in my life..
Coz you are my one and only "First Love" .

I dunno whether we'll be together or not..
But, your forever presence in my heart .fills in the verve.

The feelings which i have for you..have no end nor cause..
But, all i know is .. i will continue to love you forever and never ever take a pause..

Love you.. <3

You Live Up For Me..

When i was looking for an angel.. u lived up for me.

When i was looking for a shoulder to cry .. u lived up for me.

When i wanted a friend .. u lived up for me.

When i wanted someone to share my happiness.. u lived up for me.

When i wanted someone to share my thoughts.. u lived up for me.

But, when i wanted someone to hold me through-out the thick's n thins of life.. U perhaps did not think about me. .. ..
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You are the light for mee ..at the end of the dark tunnel..

You are that pot of gold ,from where my rainbow of life originates.

I don't say i need you.. I just want you bad,my friend.

I'll just add ..that even an iota of the thought that you will go away is a nightmare for mee..

I hope for my entire life..for the upcoming every hour.. for the upcoming every minute.. and for the upcoming every second..
U be there .... to LIVE UP FOR MEE.. (◕_◕)

Life is Moving Your way.. :)

Taking out time to write a quality blog means a lot to me. 

After all , it is like my bread and butter now. A close view in my personal garbage -"My Mind". People say i write good ..i appreciate them ;) . 

Writing things out is not a passion for me..it's actually the only way to make people understand the seriousness of the thing.

When i love something ,i combine all the energies/care i have for that thing. But,as they say Important things in Life are not "THINGS".

Go On! then..let it be the most special someone/something you have ever met or found. Yell Out..! Because Life is moving your way!

Yes! One should realise it too soon before the dream flies away.

Yes! There are some people over things too, in our lives who make our life beautiful,without even letting us know,Time now to recognise them.

Value them!

Care for them!

Make them feel How special they are for you.

Parents ,the shadows of God on earth for us. Our Living angels! Why find an angel anywhere else ,when God actually sent his two Angels to look for you,to protect you ,to nurture the true qualities in you.

Love is something actually very different. One should not confuse it with an angel's care. I Love,You Love ,we all fall in love ,Once in a lifetime,rest is just life.. :)

Love-the only excuse to convince our heart to hold on to a person.

For me,Love does'nt exist ..it's about-feeling like caring for someone and that ONLY someone no matter what.

Yes! I have fallen in Love..But It's not an excuse! I still look forward to better beings.. :D . After-all ."DIL TOH BACHCHA HAI JEE.. " ;)

What i wish to convey is..

Yes! We all come across people whom we really don't want to let go! Whom we don't want to part with..after all it's a humane thing.

BUT, Life is not just about looking forward to that person ONLY. There are certain things which are beyond the power of control of the universe as well..

Life has so much in store for us. Great lessons of life are still awaited. Let Care flow into your Life and let Life flow in Your care..that's how it goes.

The journey of Life has only one destination-"God above". During the journey ,there will be many junctions,a lot different people,different languages. All you need to have is the spirit of keep learning and making your Journey as fruitful as possible.

Break down the walls! Think beyond the social barriers..think above the usual customs. After all,You ought to live life in a different way from what others live it like.!

Take chances! Fall in love..again and again. But, Don't forget that special someone whom you truely loved and will always love till eternity. :)

A special Answer from God.. :)

Walking down the lonely road,

full of crowd but still very odd..

Thinking of times I cried..because there stood no one, to understand my tears.

I interrogated the almighty often-

"Was it that someone special whom i was looking for Or a Special Friend??"

My Cute almighty had his own style of answering,

He introduced You to me,leaving my mind still wondering..

Here is that special angel ,God's own special son;

He finds it difficult to adjust between we Humans.

Struggling through the Hardships of Life,

still fearing God all the time.

The purity of his heart attracts all..

It strikes a chord with us like a Call..

A Call straight from the God above to,

Set ourselves free and let our heart speak for all..

This angel of God has a Dream, 

to make this Earth a Better Place to Live In.

He does not believe in Luxuries,sins of Life,

because he believes- 

True meaning of Living Life is above these things all...

He has his own belief in the purification of his soul.

He is not satiated ,be it pain or happiness-He wants it More.

He Loves to enjoy the gifts of God,the true colors of nature.

When he Loves,the whole world is within him and there is No Sadness..

He is Like that moon-without which every planet is dark.

He is that face  in a Crowd who hides his wings-

Ssssshhh! He is after all God's Angel.

I feel the presence of the almighty when i Think of you.

People see God in their Lovers,

But,I find it in a friend like you.

I never knew ,my prayers would be answered in such a fruitful way.

May everyone receive answers like "you", I'll always pray.

I had never in my life imagined to meet someone as Serene as you..

The respect I have for this Angel will always be true..

Take Care Angel.. :) :)

Colours- as they call it..!

A lovely morning of 1-03-1010. 

Yes. Finally a colorful start to the third month of the year. Waking up at 9am on a festival day,feels like heaven. It actually gives one a "Fresh feeling" when u actually do something different from what you have been doing for past 17 years(in my case..! ) actually.
Ho-Lee(My version..of Holi.! ) My Favourite festival..not in the sense of enjoyment ,rather symbolically.
Colors -The lead actors of this event.
My favourite colors Green-a symbol of vitality(Itz MY Color) ;)

Well since childhood i have been just playing with colors on this day. But today on the 18th Holi of my Life..i am sitting here ,infront of this retarded laptop,trying to figure out why people are getting so Crazy. Cum'on i know it's Holi but still..i want to know the significance of it.
Thus,i finally found this piece of History behind this festival :- (Interesting,to know..)

"The very colourful Indian god, Lord Krishna was jealous of his soul mate Radha's fair complexion, since he himself was very dark. Naughty young Krishna complained to his mother Yashoda about this injustice of nature. To placate the child, doting mother asked Krishna to apply colour on Radha's face and change her complexion according to his choice.

Playful and mischievous Krishna appreciated the idea and implemented it. The game of applying colours thus gained so much popularity that it became a tradition and later it turned out to be a full fledged festival.

Till date, lovers desired to colour and be coloured by their mates. The application of colours has in a way become an expression of love."